the worst of trials.

I humiliated myself in PE AGAIN today...

It seems that I have some deep hidden fear of water lodged inside my brain from some childhood time that I can't remember, because whenever I put my head in the water my first reaction is to get it back out as soon as possible. Even holding my nose doesn't help, but I thought it would. My body just freaks, and I don't know why. During class I started shaking before the next "exercise" and it really freaked me out.

Embarrassment makes me want to cry.

I'm so pathetic.