|DateCreated||11/24/2007 10:26:00 PM|
|PostedDate||11/24/2007 11:20:00 PM|
|Body||Ok, so, I have a job. I work at [redacted]. It's a food place, which, when it comes to high school jobs, is about as low as it gets. And it's not like I'm making that much. Cause I'm not working that much. Cause of school and stuff.
But I want to buy all these things. Mostly clothes. I don't know why it matters to me so much, but appearance has always been a problem for me and a major cause for my insecurity. And I think that if I can't make myself look good, at least my clothes can look good, right? And so I keep looking at all these really nice, expensive clothes. And I want to buy them. But I can't, I don't have a lot of money. I ought to be saving, for college, and for the [redacted] trip this summer, and wherever else I might go this summer as well.
So why? Why do I feel so compelled to buy these clothes? What is wrong with me? It's rather annoying, but even now I can't think of a reason, except that I really like all those pretty dresses, and I want to wear them, and I should, and I ought to. It's quite silly, but I'm becoming materialistic. Well, not silly, just sad.
Grrr. I want to buy some damn clothes.